Transitions and Change

Transitions and changes are never easy, at least not for me. Seems just when I get comfortable, something comes along to turn my life upside down. Recently my whole world was turned upside down. Life as I have known it for the last thirteen years just abruptly changed. I know that God uses these things in my life and He will often switch things around for me cause He loves to see how I will handle the situation. Yes, the Lord is wonderful and magnificent and though I may not know what and why He is doing things in my life...I do know that He is completely and totally in control. Plus I remember surrendering my life to Him and telling Him that He could do whatever He needed to do in my life...so it's really all my fault. (laughing). Now I understand why they say, be careful what you ask for. (smile)

God also has this amazing sense of humor too, and I am learning that even in the darkest moments if I will allow the joy of the Lord to fill my heart, I can feel light and giddy just by being in His presence. (In Thy presence is fullness of joy) . Ok, so I don't want to over spiritualize this either...cause it has been hard...and I have done my share of crying, but even during these time I do see myself growing (and I don't mean sideways) though, I have been known to do that too cause I tend to eat when I am sad.

The growth I am seeing is vertical...between me and God and our relationship. I gave Him permission eons ago to work in my life to conform me into His image and He has not failed to work in my life in good and bad times. I am reminded of Job who said "shall we not accept both good from God and not accept adversity?" Job 2:10 and then in Romans 28 when we read all that we as Christians face, trials, tribulations and so on...and yet NOTHING can or will separate us from the love of God....yes, we are conquerors in Him.

So why does this soldier often feel the failure? I think it's because I don't see God in all of His glory...when Job came to the end of questioning "why?" God's only answer to Him was not to explain the rhyme or reason of what and why He did what He did in allowing all that happened to Job....God's answer was..."were you there Job, when I set creation into motion?" Yikes, this is the creator, Almighty God, the everlasting Father, Omniscient, the Omnipotent God.

Who are we to question why He does what He does...He holds it all in His hands...and He knows why, and that should be enough for me. I am growing and changing through the tough times and transitions in my life. I am also grateful for the love and support my spiritual family has shown in abundance during this time. Their prayers and love have been felt through the tough times...and the laughter and love we have shared has been incredibly healing. I may not know why God does what He does...but I am secure in knowing that He knows and holds all in His capable and loving hands, and He has provided in so many ways. Thank you God!!